The Boob Chronicles: Welcome to my World!
My daughter Sylvie just turned two. For the past year, I’ve been trying to wean her, and guess what: I am failing. I am not in control.
This morning, my fearless toddler leaped out of her crib sideways as if jumping into a wave, all in an effort to coax me into the glider chair that has become my straight jacket. If I try to do anything else, she has a meltdown. What would happen if I got rid of the chair or put it in the family room so my husband could glide, drink beer and watch hockey? Well, we all know what would happen. I’d be sitting on the floor of Sylvie’s room while she wrangles my bra exclaiming “BOOBIE, BOOBIE, BOOBIE!”
So for a moment, I relax, and melt into her moody blue eyes that give me a special flirtatious wink, reserved only for me. A few minutes go by, I fall back into my morning panic, peek at the dog who is desperate to go outside and imagine the boob job I’m going to need in a few years.
I experience a hundred different emotions on a daily basis about breastfeeding. It consumes me. I have my highs and lows. Some days I feel empowered and loving, while other days I feel resentful and guilty. To be a Type-A control freak who is controlled by a baby comes with its own set of issues.
Hello, and welcome to The Boob Chronicles.
-Audra Hughes
Tags: breastfeeding
August 7th, 2008 at 10:39 pm
[...] Magazine has launched its newest blog, The Boob Chronicles, one mother’s struggle, physically and emotionally, with life nursing a two year old. Just [...]
August 9th, 2008 at 9:49 am
OMG! I am right there with you. My little one is 23 months and I have been “weaning” her for the last year! lol
I am recently back to work full time and she has to have her morning boobie no matter what. I can totally relate to your mixed feelings on a daily basis.
I will tune in to your blog
Alina Anderson
http://www.oliveandbeanboutique.com
March 27th, 2009 at 11:37 pm
[...] feisty 2 1/2 year old is the daughter of our blogger, Audra Hughes, famous for The Boob Chronicles. Sylvie was diagnosed with a rare form of liver cancer on February 11, 2009. She is going through [...]